withdrawal sickness

I feel like mark renton looking for a last quick fix..
before his "sickboy method" attempt to get off heroin

no! canned campbell soup will not do...
I want meat!, actually I'm craving for nasik...
that's what a week at your inlaws / your mum's does to you...
I had 1 apple, I pear and I prune and I'm trying to chew the LCD monitor for lunch..
My desk phone started to look pretty delicious!

oh yeah, I'm RM 800 poorer today after car insurance and road tax...
contemplating that should be enough to make me loose appetite...

mew mew mew mew...
can't wait to get back to mu munchkins today....

sorry folks, coherent is missing from the menu today
along with sambal tempoyak ikan bilis! damn! I'm hungry again...

my dear niece

tooot.. toottt....

Hello.. Assalamualaikum...

Waalaikumsalam...

Siapa nie?

Uncle edd la nadila..

oooh, uncle edd kat mana?

uncle edd kat opis, leh cakap dengan wan?

ooo, opis tuh kat mana?

heheheh, nadila ... leh cakap ngan wan? uncle edd nak cakap dengan wan..

ala, tak payah la cakap dengan wan..


hehehe, she cracks me up everytime :)

I'm.... I'm.....

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
*sing to Chantal Kreviazuk's Leaving On A Jet Plane

Coz I've got my bag packed and will be heading to kuantan straight after work.
I'm taking the bus, I think.. coz it's all depends if I could get a ticket for tonight's
bus..

I do hope that today will go by fast :)

learning to breathe again

I have been having breathing problem at night, usually started with blocked nose, followed by wheezing, mucus, spasm etc.. the whole 9 yards.. It's scary for me because I used to me asthmatic as a small child. I started having this problem after my trip to kuching in february... ironicly, as a child, my athsma stopped when I left kuching some 15 years ago.

I was awake with the same problem last night... having problem breathing again. I did not take ventolin, just the herbal cough medicine (ubat cap ibu & anak) before I go to sleep.. I felt something in my chest, (mucus?) but could not cough it out. I reached over to my laptop and try to find what's wrong with me...

Then I stumbled on this website.. the theory was that what happening to me is my body way of telling me to breathe slowly.. it's a defence mechanism to avoid me from breathing too much.. that's why it produced mucus, inflamation of the wind pipe, blocked nose, etc.. interesting.. the basic concept of the practise was to breathe small breaths through your nose only, mouth closed.. they even teaches how to clear your blocked nose, by breathing through it!

In desperation, I gave it a try.. it's hard at first.. taking in small breaths and exhaling through my nose with my mouth closed.. 1 minute, 5 minutes, 10 minutes later I feel a whole lot better.. seriously.. Alhamdulillah... no more wheezing, no more spasm.. blocked nose is getting better.. I slept on my side just as the website suggested and in not 5 minutes I was asleep..

I was feeling wonderful this morning, even the two day old cough I was having have cleared... amazing.. today I'm going to give the practise another try.. try to climb up 6 flight of stairs at the parking lot.. I can do this with no problem on normal days but when I have this breathing problem, I usually have to stop midway panting for air.. wish me luck... I'm learning to breathe again

Have same problem with me? try visit the site, hope it's as helpful to you as it was to me.

More links to why we should breath through our nose.

neighbour in nightie

munchkins : ada jiran kita nak pinjam gula pakai nightie?

* I wish! hehehehe

currently..

not listening to this
chatroom is up, and we're having fun
news from kuantan is not very certain, doctors still workign on him...
I'm missing munchkins and it's starting to get under my skin.

some good news

check it out.. Pray for my brother-in-law's fast recovery

chillin', literally

currently listening to Sublime: Santeria while digesting few slices of ice cold papaya..

Santeria
Sublime - Sublime 1996

I don't practice Santeria
I ain't got no crystal ball
Well I had a million dollars but I, I'd spend it all
If I could find that heina and that sancho that she'd found
Well I'd pop a cap in sancho and I'd slap her down
What I really wanna know (my baby)
What I really wanna say, I can't define
Well it's love that I neeeeeed
My soul will have to wait till I get back
Find a heina of my own
Daddy's gonna love one and all
I feel the break, feel the break, feel the break
And I gotta live it out
Oh yeah un-huh
Well I swear that I, what I really wanna know (my baby)
What I really wanna say, I can't define
Got love! Make it go
My soul will have to...
What I really wanna say (my baby)
What I really wanna say, is I've got mine
And I'll make it
Yes, I'm going up
Tell sanchito that if he knows what is good for him
He best go run and hide
Daddy's got a new .45
And I won't think twice
To stick that barrel straight down sancho's throat
Believe me when I say that I got something for his punk-ass
What I really wanna know (my baby)
What I really wanna say, is there's just one way back
And I'll make it
My soul will have to wait

note to self

go buy a papaya on the way back, keep em really cold :) oh man.. slurpss...

mamak's least favourite customer

That's what I am coz I have, since last weekend, opted not to have sugar anymore in my drinks. I only had few sweets during the drive back from Kuantan - KL to help me keep awake.. I was sleepy a few times during the drive, Alhamdulillah I made it to KL in one piece...

Munchkins will be away for the week, staying with her mum in Kuantan to keep her company. She needs the moral support with my brother-in-law still unconcious in the hospital. Me sad :(

more news

News from Kuantan told us that my brother-in-law is still uncouncious.. his blood sugar level has gone down but he has not yet came out from his unconcious state.. Doctors told his family that blood & oxygen is not reaching his brain.. this is indeed bad news.. munchkins cried before we went to sleep last night. Her only elder brother is really really sick. I asked her if she would llike to go back earlier than friday to be with the whole family. I think my inlaws really need all the support that they could get. I'm taking monday off just in case.

Spare a prayer for this young lad if you can, he is too young to be so sick. He has yet to experience life at all. Be thankful for everything that we enjoy today because Allah could take that all back any seconds for any reasons. Take good care of yourselves everyone. Youth no longer equals health these days.

news...

My 26 years old brother-in-law collapsed at home today, and was sent to the hospital.. they are going to keep him there for a while.. until he stabalizes.. we're very worried and sorry for him. Munchkins and I will be going back to Kuantan friday night after work.

My elder brother said that it's a great pity because my brother-in-law has yet to taste life, too young to be sick like that.. even more reasons for all of us to take good care of ourselves..

still a live

Suddenly this song pop/pops/popped/pooped in my head, reminding me of nights spent trying to learn to play the guitar..
I still sucks at guitar :)

All over you
Live - Throwing Copper, 1994

our love is like water
pinned down and abused
for being strange

our love is no other
than me alone
for me all day
our love is like water/angels
pinned down and abused

all over you, all over me
the sun, the fields, the sky
I've often tried to hold the sea
the sun, the fields, the tide
pay me now, lay me down

* my depression is fine, thank you...

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10

I can't wait to go home..

old me..

yup, I'm the guy in green (My fav color, they say geniuses picks green) shirt and baggy jeans
Soon to be the new me I hope..

I miss that guy, I wonder if there's shreds of him left in me..

....

Ya Allah, Jauhkanlah wawa dan keluarganya dari mara bahaya.. ameen..


Me and munchkins had the unfortunate luck of being rob last year.. Alhamdulillah nobody was hurt.. We both were fast asleep in our bedroom with the door locked.. that probably saved us. We have since been more careful.. with me checking the locks before turning in for the day. Still we pray for our safety. I have some idea of home-made security system.. Maybe I'll suggest them to wawa next tiem we go for drinks..

just got to know

that my brother-in-law has just been diagnosed as morbidly diabetic.. and also with high blood preasure... and he's 2 years younger than I am... I'm thankful to Allah for my health, especially after recent medical checkup that cleared me of any health problems.

I felt like I has been given second lease on life.. hence the battle of the buldge I'm fighting now. The hardest battle for the best things in life, your own health.

falling in love again

and this time it's with you ...

weekend at home

happy mothers day ummi!.. we went to Nelayan titiwangsa for steamboat.. lil sis forgot to make reservation and we we told on saturday noon that theya re fully booked. But we decided to just go and try to get a tabel for all 7 +2 of us.. I reaced titiwangsa with munchkins and lil sis and husband.. ummi and along and wife and the kids are 20 minutes behind in anoterh car.. we went in at about 6:35pm and the staff were preparing the place for dinner spread.

I talked to a waiter and managed to securea table at a corner for us... it was right next to the buffet spread.. not bad table after all.. we were among the first customers that evening so me and lil sis's hubby hauled as much big prawns as we could to our table.. hehehe that night was all about big tiger prawns.. being early rocks... We had so much fun, the food was ok, munchkins said the spread at kelana seafood is better but it was ok too.

Next day we stayed in bed alot.. had chicken soup with soft tofu (yummie).. watched battle of the buldge on discovery.. while I fight my own battle of the buldge.. the medication took me in early.. I was asleep few minutes after them..

next week I'm going to the shooting range again ... can't wait..

I love you sooo much munchkins...

disclaimer

forgive my rude metro yuppie bashing self today..
I woke up this morning with hatred I thought I've long lost..
I'm trying to harvest hate to keep me strong, to stop me from quiting my goals..
I need to be stronger

david bechkam and his metrosexual nancies are fine with me..
:P

malaysian fav pastime?

I was at pipot.com and noticed that there's a running event almost everyweek from wawa's running calendar.. which makes me wonder.. are malaysian really into running? or takde idea dah.. anythign also marathon... anti dadah pun running, menghargai bendang also running, menghargai sungai perak also running.. gosh.. we malaysian really loves running..

and marching.. hari merdeka marching, maulud nabi oso marching.. awal muharam also marching... from police to army to school children to persatuan orang buta kebangsaan also marching.. on his birthday, the king pulak will inspect some poor recruit marching..

hehehe I guess we malaysian are really into 1. running and 2. marching.. I remember on one merdeka day, a newscaster covering the national day parade was interviewing a tourist from australia I think.. asking what she thinks of the parade.. her exect words were.. "Where are the floats?"

heheh no floats here mate, we malaysian prefer to march!
INILAH BARISAN KITA......

me no hippie but definately NOT yuppie/ metrosexual

Found this on the web..

"Aku metrosexual male. Jenis lepak-lepak Starbucks, airkiss-airkiss ni, with bourgeois, arty friends yang duduk kat posh cafes, talking about Nietzsche and those kinda things. Itu sebab aku nak buat lagu-lagu macam single Rob Thomas yang terbaru. Itulah semangat yuppie sejati."

urgh...I feel sick for these people.. yes sick.. not sorry... SICK...
airkiss this you fucking nancies...

I wuff you....

Who's my widdle piddle sugey baby woogums?
I love you so much baby munchkins...

almost there

but long miles to go... but if anybody can do it twice in a lifetime, it would be me.
bring it on!

*** 5:38pm
looking fwd to go back today.. aching for more...
:P