Sometimes, I feel ..

"Tainted Love"
Marilyn Manson

Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
I've lost my lights
I toss and turn I can't sleep at night

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love

Now I know I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
You don't really want any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
You think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love

Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm going to pack my things and go
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love

ps: - I love the Marilyn Manson version more :P

I miss

deftones with my own summer and be quiet (and drive)
limp bizkit with counterfeit, sour and faith
incubus with S.C.I.E.N.C.E
jon davis with his OD episodes

I especially miss
roller blading with my buddies at 1 am at nite
cargo pants and skateshoes
my self-confident self
say what say what and who's hot who's hot

and I'm feeling a wee bit down
so come join me in the anthem of the suicidals
Don't forget to cry while screaming "runnnnnnnnn"

Creep
By Radiohead
When you were here before, couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control
I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice, when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here, ohhh ohhhh

She's running out the door...
She's running out, she's run, run, run, run....run....

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

I'm going bonkers I think...

testing weekend

defective timing belt causing me a bomb. It still have 15,000 KM to go before need to be replaced (every 60,000 KM) but mine decided to fail and chewed my engine parts with it. :(

Car stalled on the exit curve to KL _Seremban highway, 1.5 KM from my exit to my home. I panicked at first, don't know what to do. Called up Maybank Auto assist and they sent a tow truck (RM 70) and towed to the workshop. Next day went over to teh workshop to see my air/fuel/exhaust valves are badly bent & damaged, and some of my valve heads literally broke to pieces!. I'm paying this through the nose I said. True enough, a replacement head, gasket, new timing belting & engine oil & labour to cost me rm 650. I asked the mechanic to repair my defective central locking & rear passanger window and it goes up to rm 700.

I spent the whole weekend playing diablo on playstation. Pouring my angst to every demon and undeads I came across in the catacombs. And on sunday we went to shop for munchkins' clothes & jeans. Sorry I wasn't a good company on sunday. Can't take my mind of the car.

The car will be ready later today and I will be a fortune poorer. I'm just thankful to Allah that it happened to me while I'm driving. I hate to think that it could happen whiel munchkins were driving to & fro class. I'm goignt o look after our car better start erm tomorrow.